The Stars and the Cookie Jar

Someone did me a huge favor tonight. And someone was a good friend. And I just feel beaten up and wrung out and whipped because of all of it. I don't know how to repay this random huge act of kindness. I don't know how such strange things ever happen to me. Sometimes I feel like I'm existing at the speed of light, and that's too fast for me or anybody. My brain just... it moves. It's not the same as hyperactivity. I just can't match the pace of my own thought. And things seem to keep happening to me, and I wonder how another slower saner person would process them. Because tonight someone did something very kind, and I'm just winded over it. I make no sense to me.

I miss my fiancee.